my first webclass

I just finished Oprah's A New Earth webclass. I've finished distance learning and already earned my master's degree in an Open University but this new experience enabled me to truly appreciate the technology we actually have now literally in our fingertips. I've been using Skype for work as I work from home office while I work with my colleagues within the Asia Pacific and sometimes in North America. But I am blown away seeing Oprah being amazed at the technology. Amazing.

What struck me most today is my learning and re-learning. This phrase is another "aha" moment.

"What you resist, persist" -Eckhart Tolle

It is similar to Robert Fulghum's lessons are repeated until they are learned. And also to Star trek's "resistance is futile".

We can only change something if we have already accepted it. We cannot struggle against anything that is already is and have come to be. We should accept it first before so as to create the space to make way for the change to occur.

One of the most recent experience that i had was when I lost my wallet. Isay and I went to the bank we rode a tricycle. I have my wallet in my hand where I keep my cards but it has no cash. Apparently it fell somewhere between the tryke and the ATM machine. We traced our steps but cannot find it. My mind was racing I kept thinking first it must be somewhere and the loss have not settled in. I went about reporting the loss of my cards and others. My mind was racing thinking of several things this and that what should i do. report it? where? Alot of things just passed through my mind. Unsettling thoughts. Until finally, in my mind I accepted that it was lost. But then while walking along, I prayed to God that hopefully someone will return. Anyway, I just let it go and thought "oh well, there goes the memories attached to the items there". My first ever 1999 scuba diver c-card, my driver's license, I don't worry too much about the bank cards because they are replaceable but the nostalgia of the Sagada wallet passed through my mind but after that i thought, well, another lesson learned. And I left it at that. I felt a certain finality within me that it was lost.

We ate ice cream then went home. Upon returning home our security guard informed us that someone came by to return the wallet. To make the long story short, I got everything back. But a powerful feeling came over me. I realized that only after I let it go and accepted it, that what was lost was found. Without me doing anything actively, it came back effortlessly.

Looking at it in another way, it was indeed, another answered prayer.

Hallelujah

When I watch this performance by Jason Castro (America Idol Season 7)
of Hallelujah it made me love the song. I discovered that it is actually an old song but I heard it for the first time. I was indeed moved.

It is like singing along with it from within but without actually singing. It felt like Easter. A new hope a new beginning. An affirmation of His goodness by making all things new.

The NOW

I've been reading and been discovering a lot the past weeks. I haven't written many of the events that happened because I felt right after experiencing them words cannot seem to contain the moment I found myself evolving experiencing them. I felt the the now is what matters. if I attempt to write about it, tapos na yun. Ewan. Yan thats what I mean it is not writers block but a new sense of awareness. I found that opening up myself has led me to sages.

I want to share with you this.

Celebrate Women's Month

This week there is an International Women's Film Festival at UP Diliman. Let us all celebrate Women's month.

I wrote an article about it at HerWord.com.

Changing weather

Earlier today, it was scorching hot and I thought it was a good day to do the laundry this afternoon. I loaded the washing machine and let it spin. Multi tasking as always, while I was surfing the net, I heard the pounding of the rain on the roof. A huge downpour I didn't expect. Well, as I was scrambling to get something at the back out from the rain, I realized I enjoy and welcome the refreshing rain. It did not really bother me at all that it rained while I was doing a week's load of laundry. Then, I am thankful that now I am able to just follow the flow of what is before me. It is such a light feeling and relaxing in a way when I realized that appreciating everything for what it is brings much joy. Simple joys.

I thank God for that.

Look with Love

Today, I realized that when I look at the cross, I don't just see a Jesus Christ that is suffering. Now, as I read Sacred Space, it made me realize that Jesus is looking at us with a look of love.

Maybe it is my aversion to pain and suffering that most often than not I do not look at a cross. But now with this realization, I can look at it with a new perspective. Even in suffering and dying at the cross He was looking at us with a look of love. Such great love.